I really appreciate the warm thoughts and best wishes I've recieved following my last post.
I can't yet say that I've done anything interesting with paper, nests or nature dyes but taking a photo of this sunset is actually progress. It used to be so second nature to grab my camera and take a photo but I started thinking...what's the point? All they do is sit on my computer, rarely looked at again. So I stopped. No photos of fennel flowers or spider webs and no photos of the leaves and trees I've always loved so much. Slowly, bit by bit I stopped and as a result I stopped wandering around, taking a closer look and spending time just enjoying them. I just didn't see the point in taking yet another photo. Tonight I realised that the best reason for taking the photo wasn't actually getting a photograph. I've realised that photography was just my way of being in nature. The walk around gave me time out, it inspired me artistically and refreshed me personally. It helped keep me grounded. I knew that of course but some how I forgot. It just slipped away and it's hard to hold onto something when you don't even realise you're letting go.
Resolve number two: take time to wander.